“Mind what people do, not only what they say, for deeds will betray a lie.”
– Terry Goodkind ๐๏ธ
GOAL REMINDERS:
ANTI-DEMENTIA REMINDERS:
Stuff coming up: Wednesday Birthday โ๏ธ, March 9/10th Birthday, March 14th Neighbors Coming Over
Next year: Jan-May 15th Turn in 990.
VALUES REFLECTION REMINDERS:
SAT Faith in myself. ๐ต SUN Unity, feeling comfortable in a family. MON Proactivity, know what I want. TUE Teamwork Smarter group work. WED Connection, sharing my passion with the world/accepting others gifts. THR Purpose know what I can do. FRI Creativity thinking of new ways to do better.
HEALTH JOURNAL:
Creativity
Mental Health: My mind feels cluttered. My daughter’s mental health was swinging towards worse again, I realized her treatment machine electrodes were broken so ordered new ones, I felt better once they were headed over, because then at least there was something that would probably help soon.
Physical Health: The week started fine, but I got pretty sick at the end, not horribly, but enough that pushing through extra or even normal chores wasn’t an option. I asked my husband for pizza, he came home and said he had “pizza… not”, that’s why he is an a**hole. Not because he didn’t have pizza, but he goes the extra mile to mess with you when you are already down.
Social Health: I know what it means now to be uplifted, I’m happy to have people that do that in my life now. Right now my company is mixed. My dad is back, he doesn’t uplift me, but at least it’s getting less tense than before (still tense). I did tai chi which also helps take the edge off, but again, just slightly.
LIFE JOURNAL:
Saturday: Last Saturday friends came over and we had a BBQ and also planted the lawn grass seeds, this Saturday we picked up my dad at the airport and tried a new burger place, things felt off because my sister had surgery yesterday.
Sunday: Last Sunday picked my greenhouse off the floor literally, I wanted to split the bamboo (did it), I also should find a shady spot for the mushroom logs (didn’t yet), start the Irish Moss (didn’t), water the patio garden better (did) sensitive about gardening, but still not confident.
Out of the garden, I wanted to finish a photo book, I did that Saturday. I wanted to finish the griffin painting and the whale painting, I mostly did that, I’m just debating glitter on the griffin. So some things are done, other things like the spring lights are not done. The lawn is going well, a work in progress, the front garden is going well too, but more unfinished than finished as of yet. Worked on a bit of pond wall reinforcement.
Trying to get new Silkie chicks soon for my son’s birthday.
My mind is swimming, I don’t like it, but I think I’m mildly ill. I also spent a long time in the sun, but I don’t think that is why I am dizzy/disconnected.
I’m trying to finish my son’s home video movie, but it is slow going.
Monday: Last week I was painting a griffin painting, this week it’s done. Spliced the spring lights today, had to sand down the ends with sandpaper because the wires were coated with plastic insulation. Wanted to make a movie for my son today, but I don’t have the energy right now after taking down the winter lights, putting up the spring lights, moving the golf net, watering the bamboo transplants and the grass lawn, cleaning a mess in the kitchen and on the porch, doing a load of laundry, folding the kitchen towels, starting another load of laundry, cleaning dog diarrhea, cleaning my son’s accident, cleaning my son, giving my son a bath, teaching health class and spelling in our home school and looking at science experiment ideas with my kids. Then my sister came home with more lights and I spliced some more on…
School was okay covered the immune system, innate, specific, and cellular with Amoeba Sisters, Crash Course and Acellus, also did some reading which is the last grade level course left in the year, my son did science, reading, and math. He got into sight words more yesterday. We filled out a new goal worksheet. Everything is a bit busy lately, I worked on two paintings, two areas of the garden, two students’ home school days… so everything is two lately, two birthdays coming up in the next two weeks, setting up for two new chickens.
I’ve got time right now, but I can’t imagine cooking a “good dinner” or doing anything mentally draining. I ate a can of Chunky soup and my kids had a combination of bananas and ice cream, that was my best today…
Tuesday: Last week I made a photo book for my son by reviewing three years of photos and time in three days, I’m glad I did it, but at the same time it was so mentally draining. Today I watered the lawn, weeded it further, moving clover, rocks, centipede grass, leaves, the grass is growing well overall, it’s been really dry so I made sure to water, I moved the golf net again for my dad, I guess I didn’t give him enough space where it was, so I moved it, I have a large rock in the way of leveling it where it is, so I’ll check that out first and if it is a good spot I’ll get that large rock out. The front bamboo got stressed when I split it, but it’s holding green color, which means it’s still alive, so I should probably fertilize it, but the store is all empty of the compost I usually get and pretty much of all the soil.
I was feeling unsure if anything mattered, and then I got a compliment and it made everything feel “better”. You kind of never know what matters when you are doing it, or not always, but if you never do anything then you for sure won’t know what would have happened. It seems like kind people are so few sometimes, but no matter how few they are able to change the world a lot with their example and existence. Thank God for kind people.
Sunday Tuesday
The morning glories inspired me today because I wanted to see something new, yesterday these were way smaller (the grass was too, but it’s hard to see). One thing that is different between when I am more productive vs less productive is that when I take extra time to see what I did get done (by taking photos) it does help me shake off fatigue and power through being overwhelmed and move towards that imaginary “best life” that I want to have.
I just noticed I hit the 200 reader mark, it may not sound like a lot, but it’s mind-boggling to me, I think a long time ago people would have only met that many people in a lifetime, and you can’t really know 200 people very well, as far as I know, but even to brush 200 people in a loose way is still kind of amazing to me. I’m very happy to have each reader, but also to be decluttered if it doesn’t work out as well. Sometimes I have to unfollow blogs that make me feel “rushed” to do more than I can, even though I love blogs that “nudge” me forward.
Wednesday: Last week the beach day was wonderful again, we filed for incorporation as an educational charity. Learning the Hebrew alphabet got three more letters: ืืื-ืืื-ืืื-ืืื, I also looked up the ancient meanings and that was interesting. I reviewed the last three one more time. Today it was a birthday so it was a bit more crazy then I like, but I tried to do my best not to be a buzzkillington. We made slime, which I liked, ran out of glue, going to get more next month. Our friends are going through some hard times, it makes me wish I could help them more. My daughter’s best friend liked the painting I made, so that was nice. I decided to rotate science demos, 1. chemistry, 2. physics, 3. biology, 4. math/art/music. We had some interest from other parents to help with science experiments on buoyancy, I hope that works out, but either way, we have had a growing interest in science and math challenges and a great turnout for martial arts and theatre.
Thursday: Last week I made a website for our adventure scouts, this week I got sick with a super sore throat, I hope not strep… it feels like strep. Our last dog is dying, a month after the first. She has a tumor too large to operate on so she is a hospice dog now… I’m fine, but it’s going to be a weird time because it’s my son’s birthday week, so it’s going to be sadness and joy and excitement all mixed up.
Friday: Last week I split the bamboo, today I was too sick to do extra. I was able to handle math, language, and agriculture class for the kids, because I have Acellus/Power Homeschool. And Spanish and Chinese are easy courtesy of Duoling (free app). It’s very helpful to have those as a base and teach extra on top rather than everything. It rained yesterday and today so most things got watered, but not the patio, I really should water it, but I don’t know if aI will or not. In the paper today it said restrictions are due to be lifted the 25th, which is exactly 2 years and 16 days of restrictions for our family since we were early to start in California, and late to end in Hawaii. Good riddance (I hope it is true).
So I did water the patio, no sign of the lavender sprouting yet, but that’s okay, it’s only been a few days. Looking at the pictures I don’t know how to feel, I feel more disconnected than happy or sad, like I don’t know where I am (even though I am at home) or how I got where I am now, I feel like a new person suddenly living my life, it’s a weird feeling, but I’m only 36 so I think it’s more because I’m sick and less because I have oncoming dementia (I hope).
Born to Be Alive 