“Passion rules reason, for better or for worse.”
– Terry Goodkind ๐๏ธ
GOAL REMINDERS:
Last week: I was able to find Rhubarb seeds, water the grass and bamboo, live life to the fullest, and germinate the lavender. So good job me, also did my son’s birthday party pretty well and got chicks for him and my sister to raise. Also did the Adventure Scout meet-up physics week. Also started the video for my son’s first year, first draft is done.
This week: I did seed the new grass, I did plant the Rhubarb seeds, I want to place the slug beer traps…
ANTI-DEMENTIA REMINDERS:
Stuff coming up: Dinner Invite Thursday, bring lights. Check-In With Student Loan
Next year: Jan-May 15th Turn in 990
VALUES REFLECTION REMINDERS:
SAT Faith in myself. ๐ต SUN Unity, feeling comfortable in a family. MON Proactivity, know what I want. TUE Teamwork smarter group work. WED Connection, sharing my passion with the world/accepting others gifts. THR Purpose know what I can do. FRI Creativity thinking of new ways to do better.
HEALTH JOURNAL:
Creativity
Mental Health: Saturday – I don’t feel positive or negative about the future right now, but I do feel uncertain, my husband asked if I wanted to move to Mexico and I definitely do want to, but I don’t know if I’m ready already or when the kids are older.
Physical Health: Saturday – Still a little sick and didn’t sleep last night due to stomach issues. Monday – Still hawking up phlem, but I feel pretty normal overall for the first day in awhile.
Social Health: Saturday – Mixed feelings glad to have friends, but sad some are moving as well as sad my life is so uncertain, I would like to feel like I have a permanent home, even though that is just an illusion.
LIFE JOURNAL:
Saturday: Last week I was really sick, this week, much better, but still have a bit of illness. Working on a movie with Movavi, it’s a free trial, but it leaves a watermark, something I didn’t like.
๐ป MOVAVI ๐ป: The software is easy you see a strip of pictures and a strip of soundwaves under that. You can cut the film and add pieces inside or put a layer over so you see the new video, but both sounds play. You can add titles that fade in and out. You can add location descriptions with a text box. You can add photos that stay for a few seconds. You can transition from one film to the next, or fade them with a fade to black or a page turn. It’s a pretty good film editor, but what I was trying to do was not buy anything because I don’t make a lot of films… and in the end, I will have to figure out some watermark workaround, which I didn’t want to do. But since I don’t edit that much film I wasn’t familiar with what freeware is best and what is available. The basic ideas are easy, it just takes a long time to line up all the transitions correctly, check out if they should have a fade or what type, check the volume levels, crop different sized footage, think about the style and flow sometimes, go back and check for continuity in realtime… I think it’s safe to say it takes a lot of edit time for all the run time. So when the run time is 1.5 hours, it’s much more than that to edit, especially with crashes, lost work ext. I don’t enjoy the process, even though I enjoy the end product.
Sunday: Last Sunday we got chicks for my son’s birthday, since then we had a visitor with his mom, another with her mom plus my kids have had a great time with the little silky chicks. We planted bentgrass with my daughter’s best friend, the seeds are super small and silky soft. My narcissist flowers bloomed, they are so elegant and smell wonderful. Finished my son’s movie but deciding if I want to buy the program or do a screen recording.
Monday: Last week I was halfway sick and halfway teaching “champion school:” theatre class, commas, and graphs. It was great doing Acellus with some kids that are family friends, showing them Adventure Academy and Duolingo, there are a lot of learning resources for those of us moving around, it’s just hard separating the wheat from the chaff sometimes. Not everyone is open to trying new things, but there are some fine resources out there. The family who started me planting the grass came over, it was nice having them over to see the grass that we planted together, and they are just nice people to be around in general.
Tuesday: Last week we covered Bach in school which I was craving and I ordered some bent creeping grass. This week we started a two new students on that class the has Bach, Foundations of Music, and I planted the bentgrass. Today week we met a neighbor’s granddaughter and had them over for the first time, just for a little, it was nice, it is going to be my daughter’s best friend’s first sleepover and hopefully that is fun.
Trying to remember to bring the whale badges tomorrow, I will have less space, so I will take the tent, the mats, the tablet for karate, my purse, my phone, maybe the microscope for biology…
๐ป MOVAVI ๐๐ผ: In the end I was bitter that the Movavi didn’t allow me to make a trial video without a watermark, in the end I payed $35 for Movavi video editor plus, when it was marginally better than a free Window’s Movie Maker. I wouldn’t have used it, if I hadn’t have read an article that said it was the best free movie maker without a watermark, which it wasn’t at all, no thank you for the lies Ben Jacklin, I’ll never trust you again. But anyway… my son did like watching the movie, which makes me happy and I guess everything has a cost. I just wish it was upfront that I knew the cost, so I could have either chosen something else or chosen to pay, rather than being trapped into it.
Wednesday: Last week I finished learning the Hebrew alphabet because I know my friends are leaving soon. ื (alef), ื (beit) , ื (gimel), ื, (daled), ื (hei), ื, (vav), ื (Zain), ื, (get), ื (tet), ื (yod), ื (kaf), ื (lamed), ื (mem), ื (noon), ืก (sameh), ืข (Ain), ืค (pey), ืฆ( tsadik), ืง (kuf), ืจ (reish) , ืฉ (shin), ืช (taf). I’m thinking of doing a DNA extraction with salt, water, soap, a kabob stick, and alcohol, I found it from the Microhunter which had a lot of interesting microscope videos. I’m still a bit sad though, so everything is a little sour.
Self Reminder: I need to bring, general beach stuff (sunblock, towel, water, sunblock, floaties, blower), the DNA extraction stuff (salt, water, alcohol, tube, stick), the karate stuff, tent, mats, clothes, video tablet, the other tablet, the wifi, maybe the foofy ball, the crank radio. Remembered 17/21 (I forgot the wifi, crank radio and foofy ball, but remembered the rest.)
I found out my friends have 12 days left here, so it made me happy, even though I guess I will be sad all over when that time is over. Did 10 finger guillotine choke during martial arts. We had a nice beach meet up again with a succesful DNA extraction demo. Had some nice guests from Colorado. There were reported whales, but I didn’t see them. Planned our spring camping for next Thursday.
Thursday: Last week was my son’s first non-pandemic birthday, this week set a Patreon Account for the Adventure Scouts, added a lost and found, added the 501 goal, added new event photos, updated the camping trip. We went to St. Patrick’s day dinner, which was nice.
Friday: Last week I began my son’s first year video montage, this week I am finally done after finding a program, buying it, doing about three revisions due to cropping freezes ext. Anyways that feels good, I was going through my phone to add contacts instead of leaving phone numbers and relying on threads, cleaning up the desktop files that were all messy, letting go of some unneeded copy images and in general cleaning house. We got a smaller plasma ball and a transformer for the larger one, so that will be fun for our science demo, I want to do it this week… we got a fire bow for the camping trip.
I started a Trauma and Brain Development course I’ve been putting off, it reminds me of when my daughter was bitten by a pit bull and got traumatized, it wasn’t the worst bite, but it made her feel powerless and she went from potty-trained to un potty trained. We made a drawing together of her being sad and titled it #chicabitemetoo because the dog did bite pretty much everyone (no disrespect to other pit bulls), she colored the drawing, we made a t-shirt. It seemed to help, but then we did have to re-learn that potty training and some other things. I don’t know what I should have done differently. I don’t know if we are meant to suffer, then recover, or if more safety would have helped her reach her potential in a greater way? In general, I don’t know if being sheltered is ideal or if a middle ground is better in the end. I don’t know if I will ever know, so as a parent I take a middle ground, but I know I am just guessing, I’m all too aware of that. I got through half the frist quarter of the Trauma Class so far.
Some prompts were I fought when, I ran away when, I froze up when:
I fought when “I got hit with a tupperware in the head pretty hard,” I ran away when “I was 16 and I was depressed I would run at the track for hours and I didn’t really know what made me sad or how I was feeling on a normal day” I froze up when “people are talking to me and I am interested, but I feel like I can’t find the words fast enough to say them in person (it’s hours later sometimes when I have my response ready, and by then it’s usually irrelevant).
Looking back there were usually good reasons, maybe sometimes I overreacted, but more often I underreacted and stayed with bad people or in bad situations too long.
It’s going well I think.
Anyways, been working a bit on the scout website today, it’s so cute. Saving some energy to go camping Thursday/Friday, doing some laundry, I feel pretty peaceful today, enjoying an easy spring break week.
Born to Be Alive 