“People are stupid; given proper motivation, almost anyone will believe almost anything. Because people are stupid, they will believe a lie because they want to believe it’s true, or because they are afraid it might be true.” – Terry Goodkind 🕊️

Last Week: My allergies were horrible.

This Week: My allergies are there, but survivable.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: There is an alarm in my head at all times reminding me I am moving soon, so it makes it hard to relax.

Physical Health: I don’t even know if I want to exercise or not so close to moving, if I form a good habit, I’ll have to reform it again.

Social Health: So-so, I have good friends, but I also feel a bit over socialized and I would love some solitude, especially at home. I still don’t get along well with my family, I guess I always wish I did, but I don’t. I hate how they don’t talk clearly and are needy, I hate a lot of little things about living with them.

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LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”

– Roberto Assagioli

“There is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.”

–Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week the house was dirty and I was having allergies and asthma flare ups, this week it’s a lot cleaner thanks to my sister cleaning my dad’s room, him rebuilding his closet to hold his clothes and me helping clean the clothes and house in general. The house is a lot cleaner, but I don’t really like being with my family. When my sister told my dad she was cleaning he said he didn’t want to do anything, I don’t know what is wrong with him that he needs someone to clean all his mess for him without him doing anything. I don’t know if he needs depression medicine or some help or exactly what, but what I do know is that being a roommate with someone like that is pretty unpleasant for me personally.

Sunday: Last week cleaned my house a bit, helped a friend clean and bait for cockroaches. This week I went sailing, which was awesome, I hadn’t seen the bay from the water before. It was really cool, but I also feel a bittersweetness that I know I’m leaving soon and I will miss my friends. Three days into the month was the day I hit my budget from sailing snacks, $10 pink shoes, and candy+ the day before, if I mentally say it’s groceries I have plenty of budget left, but it wasn’t really normal groceries…

Monday: Last week went on a budget, this week already spent my budget, but didn’t really go over it, so that’s okay. We went to a parade and took the kids to play fair games, they bought masks from the swapmeet at the festival and had fun bouncing in a bouncer. It was nice to see my daughter and son having fun. I wrote a subscriber article for our scout group’s Patreon subscribers, I think it was pretty cool, but, I guess I am biased.

Tuesday: Last week my daughter hit some math anxiety knowing she was close to the end of 2nd-grade math. This week for ice cream and two prizes she changed her attitude, finished math with a 94% and wants to write a song about how much she loves math… maybe I’ll start her from 9-9:30 on math, then coding from 9:30-10:30 and chemistry 10:30 to 11. My son 9:30-10 on Preschool 2. Updated my desktop schedule so that’s good…

Wednesday: Last week we did a DNA extraction at the beach and had a ton of fun skateboarding at the skate park before going to the beach. This week we went to the movies before the beach, but were late, it was a bit off, but still fun that kids made glowing slime and there were two rabbits and a guinea pig the little kids had fun with as well as a low price toy sale for kids to practice shopping.

Thursday: Last week the air filters came, I was literally lying awake in bed smelling the fresh air. This week I’m resting, my daughter started manipulating thousands in math, and also wondering how much she has saved and also is catching up a lot better in STEM Coding after a break. My son had a little math break after learning hundreds. Going back over the first part of STEM Coding 1 my daughter got much faster debugging, her reading and logic skills have improved over the time she took a short break from coding to go back over it, that is interval studying. Something really bad happened, I’m not going to discus it publicly, but it sours everything good in the world sometimes when something really bad happens, even if you don’t want it to.

Friday: Last week went to a friend’s house covered grouping with a younger one and algebra with an older one. I was kind of sleepy the whole time since I ran out of coffee, we made a really yummy curry. I had a nice time. I really didn’t want to be a parent anymore, I really didn’t want any more failure and challenge, I really wanted a peaceful break, I didn’t want to keep struggling, I didn’t want to face reality, but I didn’t have a way not to, I’m not a distractable person.

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Waiting for my husband’s company to let him know where he is going to transfer next, we are going to start over somewhere.

Something new this week: More unhappy to be a parent than ever before, really unable to enjoy the level of feeling like a failure.

Something good this week: I did the first kindergarten math lesson with a student I hadn’t worked with yet, it was interesting watching their mental process was quite different than the other students.

Something unexpected: I enjoyed curry with paprika and we got a cool dino lego set, I didn’t expect to get more anytime soon.

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