“Kindness and good intentions can be an insidious path to destruction. Sometimes doing what seems right is wrong, and can cause harm.” – Terry Goodkind 🕊️
GOALS THIS WEEK: Make fire boards, collect ash, get through the beach day and PH strip demo, survive and or enjoy camping.
Last Week: My allergies were irritating.
This Week: My allergies are mild.
Mental Health: I’m going to be suffering mentally for a while, as long as I keep doing other things, eventually I run into some activity or some moment that heals my mind, it has never seemed to help to talk about it as much as it does just to go off into nature or different places at least and just actually put the past in a different location.
Physical Health: The kids and I got sick over the weekend and just like last time the camping trip was already planned, so I guess we are resting up to try to be well.
Social Health: Looking forward to the camping trip, yet also not sure what people expect from me.
“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”– Roberto Assagioli
“There is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.”
–Mary Anne Radmacher
Saturday: Last week the house was under remodeling of a closet, this week that is done and it seems to make the whole house a bit less disorganized. This week my sister went through some kitchen cabinets. I couldn’t really get myself together to help much, I was feeling sick, my nose kept bleeding most of the day. We took the kids to the movies and it was a good movie, but I couldn’t enjoy it due to both taking them to the restroom over and over and also because I’m still really sorry, dissatisfied, and regretful to be a parent and a member of my family lately, it’s a feeling I’ve had in small amounts for a long time and it’s really intensified this past week. I haven’t handled my daughter’s special needs the best over time, and I don’t even want to have to, I know other special needs parents advocate embracing it, but I haven’t found a way to want to have such a heavy burden, I’ve carried it, I’ve had some success and some failure, but I never wanted it, not honestly.
Sunday: Last week went sailing, which was awesome. This week I had my daughter do a math test, both the kids were sick. The power went out for about an hour, the air quality really drops when the filters are off.. that’s bad news, but it’s really nice when they are on, that’s good news. The kids, my husband and I watched Little House on the Praire for a bit, it was nice, it felt relaxed even though my daughter was pretty fussy most the day. I made a flyer on the computer and ID-ed a Bluegum Eucalyptus and did some plant ID info.
Monday: Last week we went to a parade, this week a normal school day. I finished the Botany Challenge worksheet, finished the links to the attribution for images and species names for a dozen plants in our camp area, and finished a hiking list. My daughter did three language lessons instead of one, we started that about a week ago and now she is used to it, she didn’t want to do Italian, because of how much English translation typing it has compared to Hebrew, Japanese and Chinese just have her click letters. The language practice has helped her pick up letter sounds and listen more closely to which sound is which, she has picked up some letters from Hebrew, Japanese, and words from Chinese as well. We did piano practice going back to learn proper fingers for the song, I took a break and just let her play with any fingers, but it’s slower that way just like typing, once she gets faster I guess she can adapt the finger position again. My son did his music singing and piano too. They both did math assessments, my son got 87% on Kindergarten math, which is fine, I haven’t tested his 1st grade math yet. My daughter did 93% in 8 minutes on the Kindergarten math test, she also got 93% on 2nd grade, but it took 43 minutes, she did lose focus a few times, but she definitely understands the math overall, which is good. This is the 2nd and 3rd time I’ve tested Acellus’s curriculum against Khan Academy and it’s within 2% of the same evaluation again. I’m happy with that. So things are not perfect, but I’m happy with the kid’s math, music, and school overall.
Tuesday: Last week my daughter finished second grade math, I was thinking about 9-9:30 math, then coding 9:30-10:30, chemistry 10:30 to 11. My son 9:30-10 on math or reading. Today my husband regrets transferring out of state, so he is stressed out, I gathered ash for fire boards that he is not done making. I’m sick with a sore throat, my kids don’t want to go to the beach for the first time, but I said I would bring PH paper so we should, I also have to go pick up my camping stuff at some point. I’m hoping that tomorrow I will be better than today, what do you take for a sore throat?
Wednesday: Last week we went to the movies before the beach. This week there was a hurricane and everyone was pretty tired so we didn’t go to the beach for the first time in a long time. I was tired out from being sick but still chainsawed logs into wedges to use as fire boards, that was fun. Then I baked the wood to sterilize it.
Thursday: Last week something really bad happened, I thought I would worry about it for a long time, but a week later it’s somehow a lot less important, not right, but less important. We went camping, the kids seemed to love the light sabers.
Friday: Last week went to a friend’s had a good time with math but was sad about my own personal failings. This week camping, had a sore throat after the hike and a headache so I went home after sleeping in the tent the first night with the kids, I felt bad to leave my friends but I was getting pretty sick, so I stayed the day, went home to take a bath and sleep to come back the next morning.
My husband is leaving in a month, but I will have a few more months of summer until returning to California.
Something new this week: Did the light saber pool noodle craft finally and it was pretty epic.
Something good this week: I felt a lot better about what happened, or actually not better at all but it just didn’t affect me anymore it passed tormenting me, I’m not happy about it, but no longer emotional about it.
Something unexpected: I had fun doing the foam archery with the kids.