“Kindness and good intentions can be an insidious path to destruction. Sometimes doing what seems right is wrong, and can cause harm.” – Terry Goodkind 🕊️
GOALS THIS WEEK: See my husband off, clean the house, dream.
Last Week: Still sick.
This Week: Struggling to get back on task with paperwork.
Mental Health: Thrown off, my husband has a week left and the future is so uncertain exactly when and where will meet him again, probably in a few months.
Physical Health: Still sick, not too uncomfortable but wanting to be regular already, impatient.
Social Health: Doing okay but conflicted between cleaning my home and going out, resting, and seeing my friends before I leave the state.
“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”– Roberto Assagioli
“There is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.”
–Mary Anne Radmacher
Saturday: Last week was a unicorn birthday party, my husband’s things were taken by the movers. This week it overshadows the rest of my life that my husband is leaving soon.
Sunday: Last week I wanted to do hedges, but I was too sick. This week I was even more sick, pretty uncomfortable with alternating fevers and total body aches.
Monday: Last week started cleaning the house. This week taking it easy since I’m sick, sore, and nauseated and don’t seem to be digesting any food.
Tuesday: Last week I made seven new shelves and started organizing my stuff.
Wednesday: Last week was a birthday party and my son made huge bubbles. This week we were pretty much all sick with flus so most of us cleaned up or did errands. It didn’t feel too bad because it had been such a strong streak before. I was starting to get burnt out, even one day to organize helped me get a sense of what I wanted for the future.
Thursday: Last week my daughter changed her Google Profile cartoon from a little little kid to a kid and it really struck me how old her mind is now. This week I wish I felt more organized, I am starting to feel really behind on paperwork as well as not happy with my school routine yet. My son has been wanting more math than I have patience to help him with and more art as well. I’ve been decluttering, looking up non-profit law, trying to keep my kids school records straight and worried about a sick friend, as well as sorting out the start of my first year home schooling both kids, I feel like I’m not doing anything well trying to do everything.
Friday: Last week trying to help other homeschool parents get started with the year. This week sick to my stomach. Sad there isn’t a bon dance this year, it marks my year if they cancel it, it feels like I didn’t have a real year. There were some, but the one I go to is canceled. There was a 4th of July Parade that was pretty full, it wasn’t my favorite holiday before, but it feels good to me to see people alive doing normal things, just wish Tanabata and Obon would have made it this year too.
I feel like I am falling behind at everything.
Something new this week: My husband moved his weights out of the house and I built 7 shelves to organize my own stuff, I like the shelves so far, but it will take time still to sort like with like, what I need and don’t need ext.
Something good this week: Watching my son make huge bubbles at the beach, it made me happy, even though I was too tired to show it, it was cool he made his own and seemed to have fun.
Something unexpected: When the whole pop up tent flipped over at the beach, it was very unexpected.