“Passion rules reason, for better or for worse.“ – Terry Goodkind 🕊️
GOALS THIS WEEK: Cleaning house.
Last Week: Struggling with paperwork.
This Week: Feel better, not 100%, but 80%.
Mental Health: I am so invigorated with the garden.
Physical Health: So much better, exercised once so far, but planning to do about 3 times a week.
Social Health: Doing well again, somehow made peace with the migratory nomadic lifestyle again.
“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”– Roberto Assagioli
“There is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.”
–Mary Anne Radmacher
Saturday: Last week I wanted to catch up with our paperwork. This week I am 43 pages into the paperwork, but I found a great guide so I feel more confident writing a business plan. That wasn’t something I’ve ever done and I was intimidated. I went to my friend’s store opening, so proud of her. My husband left the state at night, the kids were okay with it, I don’t know how to feel about it, I don’t feel bad, I thought I would feel bad, but I’m focusing on eating better for the kids and I to have better immune systems and cleaning up around the house so when I leave in a few months everything is pretty much in order already… I’m onboarding five members to our non-profit corporation, doing paperwork for that… Fixing up my garden and hoping to help the community gardens soon.
Sunday: Last week I was sick with a fever and body aches. This week a tiny bit of cough left, but almost none. It was a great day, I went to a friend’s house and helped her garden, we moved a shelf into her shed, placed the old one in the garden and are getting some pots and beds ready for the spring. Then went to another friend’s house to garden as well and was able to block out a pathway, two garden beds, get some mint and some lemon balm planted. I’m having a lot of fun in the garden lately, at my home I am planning to graph tomatoes onto avocado.
Going to start hydroponics again indoors to make salads to eat, I eat $10 of salads a week, the hydroponic system cost $109 I wonder if it will ever earn it’s money back?
Got 400 plant bags for seeding, since I started 140 roma tomatoes I guess they will go quickly… I got lavender seeds again they did germinate well after cold stratification, I just didn’t pay attention to watering them enough. I got Cherry Blossom seeds, it’s still on my bucket list to sprout them. Morning glory seeds, they never have done well, but maybe I need to wait longer before planting them outside. Two compost barrels… rhubarb, clover, and alfalfa.
Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via paper towel, waiting to move to grow bags. Need more steer manure and vermiculite. Straw and weed cloth.
Lavender – Waiting to grow and share.
Cherry Blossom – Waiting to grow and share.
Morning Glory – Waiting to grow and share.
Rhubarb, Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden.
Part of my mind is wanting to keep a lot of notes, but another part is wanting to let them go… I don’t all the way understand it, but when I took the Stregth Finders Test it said Input people like to keep notes or information but perhaps as a Resolver I like to get rid of them?
As a community instructor, I teach math, science, karate, and music, as a human I need to exercise, eat, write and talk to my friends, as a home school teacher I teach traditional subjects, but also focus on outside time, also focus on art, also focus on conscious life balance, as a Non-profit Director, I bring supplies to the beach, I update the website, I do paperwork and I try to bring people together to create a village for our kids and also for us, because we need a village to be really happy for the most part most of us need that.
That feels good, like I have finally found a good place in life, a humble place, perhaps a weird place, but a place I can use my talents to improve the world in a way that is significant to me, in a manner that suits me.
Monday: Last week taking it easy since I was sick. This week feeling good. Thinking about gardening. We are starting some medicinal herb gardens like peppermint, and coconut, maybe neem. I’m excited to try coconut bonsai trees hopefully soon. I don’t see whole coconuts too often, I guess some Walmarts have them, but ours is out of stock. 1. Mullien 2. Mugwort 3. Spilanthes 4. Comfrey 5. Lemon Balm 6. Holy Basil 7. Aloe 8. Sunflower 9. Oregano 10. Thyme 11. Lavender 12. Spearmint 13. Peppermint 14. Coconut 15. Curry Leaf 16. Cleavers 17. Italian Basil 18. Raspberry Tea 19. Garlic 20. Neem
Tuesday: Last week I was wondering about the scout group, where its ultimate fate lies? This week I still care, but I feel more grounded baking bread with my own family and both kids played a Mesopotamian civilization-building game (Nebacanezer) where they grow wheat for bread to feed the people, so we looked at the wheat we grew last year and made some bread together. My son beat the first mission and my daughter the first three. So math, civ games, some class, music 3 songs, lunch… Built a chicken coop and had tacos, it was very fun.
Wednesday: Last week we were pretty much all sick with flus so most of us cleaned up, I cleaned one room well and put most the house in order, it felt nice. This weeks feels like 10 years after last week for some reason. My mental landscape shifted to gardening, a friend commented two weeks ago about how important food is to humanity and struggling between the kids and gardening since both take so much time and that reinvigorated my deep passion for gardening. So now we have a medicinal herb project going, but I hope I can be more consistent than I have been before. It was lovely to be with friends, it was a lovely day.
Thursday: Last week we sent my husband’s car to the port, he got his ticket to leave Saturday night. This week it feels as if he had been gone for ages already. My daughter’s mental health treatment machine’s wires broke, she spent hours in inconsolable fits. I’m so lucky we ever found that treatment, the new wires are on the way. The upside is I can see she still needs it, when we do use it I am not sure if she needs it at all, but without it, she can’t settle down to sleep, she gets crazy at night instead of tired, and she can’t do her school work without fidgeting or worrying or running off, plus she looks unhappy because she stays in a negative miasma of ANTS (automatic negative thoughts) that probably drives the other behavior, she picks at her face x40 more than normal and in general, just cranks up her natural neuroticisms to 11. I had some gift bananas so we made “banana” banana bread muffins. Built a turning composter.
Friday: Last week felt optimistic about the future again. This week I feel borderline crazily optimistic ie “exhilarated.” We made noodles and muffins and more muffins, we covered Kindergarten math, second-grade math, third-grade math, sixth and seventh-grade math, and high school algebra, it takes a different mental state to hold all the math together, but I enjoy it. We started Japanese lessons finally… which was awesome. It’s hard to overstate how much I enjoy seeing our friends, it’s only been more now that we are planning to migrate out of state back and forth.
Found this quote again since we started Crash Course world history:
“The test will measure whether you are an informed, engaged, and productive citizen of the world, and it will take place in schools and bars and hospitals and dorm rooms and in places of worship. You will be tested on first dates, in job interviews, while watching football, and while scrolling through your Twitter feed. The test will judge your ability to think about things other than celebrity marriages, whether you’ll be easily persuaded by empty political rhetoric, and whether you’ll be able to place your life and your community in a broader context. The test will last your entire life, and it will be comprised of the millions of decisions that, when taken together, will make your life yours. And everything, everything, will be on it.”The test will measure whether you are an informed, engaged, and productive citizen of the world, and it will take place in schools and bars and hospitals and dorm rooms and in places of worship. You will be tested on first dates, in job interviews, while watching football, and while scrolling through your Twitter feed. The test will judge your ability to think about things other than celebrity marriages, whether you’ll be easily persuaded by empty political rhetoric, and whether you’ll be able to place your life and your community in a broader context. The test will last your entire life, and it will be comprised of the millions of decisions that, when taken together, will make your life yours. And everything, everything, will be on it. – John Green
Something new this week: Set up an aeroponic garden in the kitchen for green onion or basil so we won’t have slugs on what we eat fresh, since our area is ubersluggy.
Something good this week: Been integrating world history lessons from social studies with Civ games and with Crash Course World History and with cooking, I like it when our curriculum is heavily integrated, plus my daughter integrates again with art.
Something unexpected: Gift bananas, they feel so special from the farmer.