“There is magic in sincere forgiveness; in the forgiveness you give, but more so in the forgiveness you receive.“ – Terry Goodkind 🕊️

GOALS THIS WEEK: Start thinking about a paperwork day.

Last Week: Getting soil beds ready for pumpkins.

This Week: Continuing to garden.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Guilty about everything I didn’t do, overwhelmed by everything I want to do, enjoying working on projects, but scared I won’t finish as much as I want to finish.

Physical Health: Doing a lot better, crossing my fingers I won’t catch this same flu x3 (x2 was enough I hope).

Social Health: Uber into gardening, trying to finish up projects, pathway part B on Sunday maybe, pumpkin, watermelon, tomatoes hopefully going in soon.

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LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”

– Roberto Assagioli

“There is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.”

–Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week another “mulch party”. This week going to check on a project left unfinished. Hoping to put in a lot of watermelons and pumpkins. So did work on both projects, planted more watermelon, pumpkins, and sunflowers, used some bamboo I grew to put up my first fence, a weak garden fence, but it sets off the area the kids are supposed to stay inside of at least. Baited for LFA at two gardens. I was really in a flow state with bamboo and jute twine. Kind of did some kaizen stuff with organizing after doing the permaculture stuff, it feels better to do the garden stuff. Pizza Recipe 🍕.

Sunday: Last week I moved the small plants out of the patio and onto a medium plant staging area. This week it feels like a long time has passed since last week, I moved about 40 of the pumpkins out of the staging area into the community. I was teaching the second set of 5 letters of Japanese and some math, it was nice. It was kind of a rainy sleepy day. I calculated most seeds I grow cost $0.04, the bags cost $0.05, the soil costs a lot more $0.45, but dropping off plants anywhere kind of costs $10 with gas at $5/gallon, and my car only gets 18 miles/gallon and we live about 30 miles out of town… so 60 miles round trip and that takes at least 3 gallons, so it’s noticeable now, yet thankfully I can still do it for now. $0.54 per plant is my average cost growing from seed right now, if I had better natural soil it would be $0.09 but the difference almost doesn’t matter alongside the $10-15 it costs to deliver anything anywhere. I am toying with the notion of becoming a lavender farm right now, who knows what the future holds for anyone? I enjoyed moving pumpkins along the line to fill the gap where the ones that got planted were taken from, I still have four little tables of pumpkins, tomatoes doing well and a full table of watermelon with some herbs, and morning glories. My rosemary is doing horrible, but my friend’s rosemary is doing well (I could steal some!). I have more serrano pepper than I probably need coming up, and finally some cilantro, some green onion planted, and some pumpkin and butter lettuce. I’ll miss my plants when I leave.

Monday: Last week cut a pathway through the woods and my son did piano and Spanish homework for the first time, he was so cute and happy. This week I feel very unsettled, I feel like life is off kilter for some reason. I’m trying to get my house in order, mentally and actually, and I know I have paperwork waiting and my social life even though I enjoy it, is draining me, so I feel conflicted about where I can spend less energy and time to be able to do the things I need to do and I don’t really know what matters the most or what to do first. I’m thinking of a leaking boat and I’m the boat.

Tuesday: Last week I was trying to work out the school schedule, this week it’s already not working, but that’s okay. Been gardening, starting seeds, transferring seeds to soil, clearing places, at night swings came, we made them with the kids, but the kids lost one nut so it’s going to be a longer process to assemble them, which is okay, just feels like every process surrounding the home becomes a long process.

Wednesday: Last week we placed the sites for pumpkin and watermelon got a de-slugging station set up. Wednesday it was a nice day at the beach overall, brought some roma tomatoes, we had the math decathlon, which was nice, yet also there was some conflict which I hope we can better avoid in the future. It’s hard to say, yes I had fun with the kids making oil and water stuff, but at the same time things happened that were not positive also, so it’s hard to find a way to phrase that there was good and bad, and it’s a bit hard to accept that my most peaceful place was less peaceful, but that’s reality, the good with the bad.

Thursday: Last week I the pumpkin patch soil went in (Friday), this week we planted Crook Neck Squash and Nasturtiums and put copper mesh around the growing areas, so that was really cool because it went from an idea to a reality very fast, I didn’t think the seeds would arrive and germinate so fast, it seems like it went from idea to reality in a week. Dropped off some roses, which was cool, I never appreciated roses much, but these Double Red Knockout Roses are so vibrant a red here next to the vivid green of Hawaii.

Friday: Last week we had a super cool rainbow cake. Doing some paperwork really felt like it bogged down the day, we also made cookies, pizza and started a student on Duolingo, which is nice, but the paperwork somehow dominated everything. It was fun letting the kids play a bit more car racing then normal. I think it’s not just paperwork being draining, yet also that it reminds me of my guilt over not doing more paperwork…

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How’s it Growing?

Cherry Blossom – Cold stratified, paper towel. Getting moldy doing a hydrogen peroxide soak. ⌛

Lavender – Cold stratified, Germinated in weeks via paper towel with heat and light. They are sprouting bit by bit, seedlings look fine. 👍🏼

Sunflower – Germinated in 3 days after 24 hour soak. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. 👍🏼

Morning Glory – Germinated in 1 day via cup of water, moved to paper towels > grow bags. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. 🌱 They look good some are vining now.

Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via papertowel. Grown. Distributed. Looking good. 👍🏼

Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden A. 🔮

Blueberry – Germinating…

Raspberry – Germinating… seem all gross, not sure if it’s just the way the seed capsule is.

Something new this week: Macadamia Nut milk is okay, ran out of everything else, used it for baking, coffee ext, it was fine.

Something good this week: Toned down on the spending by buying 7 bags of steer manure instead of 20, it was nice to start gardens, yet it’s good to reign it in.

Something unexpected: I’m so into gardening again after being not into it for awhile, I don’t know what makes me hate or love gardening so much more or less, but sometimes it feels magical and other times pointless.

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