“People are stupid; given proper motivation, almost anyone will believe almost anything. Because people are stupid, they will believe a lie because they want to believe it’s true, or because they are afraid it might be true.” – Terry Goodkind 🕊️

GOALS THIS WEEK: Even though I have a lot I want to do I feel so stressed I want to destress somehow.

Last Week: Continuing to garden.

This Week: Look for site for greenhouse.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Too overwhelmed to be guilty or anxious. Camping is coming up, visitors, my daughter’s birthday, and Halloween, I need to do the minimum for awhile or I’ll go crazy.

Physical Health: Caught this same flu x3, sadness.

Social Health: Not looking forward to October, just seems so stressful a gateway to the holiday season that I detest.

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LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.”

– Roberto Assagioli

“There is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.”

–Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week put up a gate and did some community cleaning, it was a really nice day. This week we did a lot of science learning collaboration, Life Science, Physical Science, and Human Body, Acellus Science, and some math, stuff we normally do on Friday, but on Saturday, that felt kind of weird, but at least sciencey so that’s nice in a way.

Sunday: Last week I was teaching the second set of 5 letters of Japanese and some math, it was nice. This week I taught more math and science and did some dancing with the kids, it was pretty fun. Started some new Duolingo users, which is awesome. I’m getting behind in cleaning, which makes me feel a little uncomfortable, but at least I have Kyara’s birthday and Halloween figured out.

Monday: Last week trying to get my house in order, mentally, and actually his week a lot of reading and some paperwork for a friend. Paperwork kind of makes me anxious, not about the paperwork I’m doing, but about what I am not doing and “should” be doing. I really want to get some paperwork done, yet at the same time, it’s not easy to set aside enough time to make it feel significant.

Tuesday: Last week the school schedule, I made two weeks ago was not working, which I’m okay with. This week a lot of paperwork and a lot of reading with the kids. kind of thinking about life. Getting in the Halloween mood, and noticing my son is so big and such an independent person already. I want to do music and dance and exercise every day, but I don’t know if I ever will or if I will end up moving each thing to once a week, it’s really draining doing music and exercise, dance is a bit easier, but all three things are draining.

Wednesday: Last week we had the math decathlon and I’m proud of the kids, very proud. This week was block day, I found it lovely and wonderful, the sun felt warm rather than burning, the surface of the water was beautiful, it was one of those days kind of like falling in love, but no new love interests in my life, just such a beautiful day each section was romantic in its splendor. I was able to talk to some friends in a meaningful way despite us all chasing our kids and I felt really blessed in that because often it feels like I brush aside my well-being for my kids, and that’s fine sometimes, but it felt magical for them to have fun and me to have fun, it felt like a miracle. We jarred some bugs in the garden this week, it was okay, definitely not all the bugs, but some of them.

Thursday: Last week Crook Neck Squash and Nasturtiums went into the garden, this week they are small, but looking good. We saw what looked like Spotted Eagle Rays at the beach, it was pretty cool, had a cool little picnic dinner at the beach with friends. Not the most chill day for me, but happy my kids were happy, to a point. My daughter jumped from the local high spot and it was cool to see her so brave as she normally is. Learned some Korean at night I used to know the alphabet and it’s coming back really quickly, I remember the coworker who taught it to me and when he bought me a burger, it was cool, just one small nice gesture with no pressure, there isn’t enough kindness like that with no strings attached in this world.

Friday: Last week there was stressful paperwork looming over my mind, this week there is still more paperwork, but I’m not going to worry about it. Instead I’m stressed about my dad coming back, cleaning up, my husband visiting, my daughter’s birthday, the camping trip, but I don’t want to stress about the camping trip so I think I won’t. I put three slugs into the slug jar today, leapord slugs, which are super gross to me, beyond being gross they have paracites in my area. Sprouted some crook neck squash they smell good, really good as sprouts. My cherry seeds are struggling to sprout. Lavender is doing good though. Going to try some cococoir for the cherry seeds soon. Saw my friends, cooked some curry and watched a fried rice demo. Helped set up Duo Lingo for Japanese. Moved some roses from the Southside to the Northside of a garden. Had a really good time with my friends. There was three of us adults and it felt like we could really talk in that amount compared to the large group on Wednesday.

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How’s it Growing?

Cherry Blossom – Cold stratified, paper towel. Getting moldy, switched back to the fridge, thinking of scarafying and moving to coco coir. ⌛

Lavender – Cold stratified, Germinated in weeks via paper towel with heat and light. They are sprouting bit by bit, seedlings look fine. 👍🏼

Sunflower – Germinated in 3 days after 24 hour soak. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. 👍🏼

Morning Glory – Germinated in 1 day via cup of water, moved to paper towels > grow bags. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. 🌱 They look good some are vining now.

Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via papertowel. Grown. Distributed. Looking good. 👍🏼

Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden A. 🔮

Blueberry – Germinating…

Raspberry – Germinating… seem all gross, not sure if it’s just the way the seed capsule is.

Something new this week: Played tick tack toe in Korean.

Something good this week: Friday having the three of us together felt cool.

Something unexpected: Thursday saw spotted eagle manta rays.

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