๐Ÿฆ‹ 2022 Forty-Sixth Week ๐ŸฆŽ

There is magic in sincere forgiveness; in the forgiveness you give, but more so in the forgiveness you receive. Terry Goodkind ๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ

GOALS THIS WEEK: I want to start exercising, spend more time outside, draw more, do music, get the house cleaned, finish the paperwork, be a good person, and stay organized.

Last Week: Was reflecting on priorities, goals, life, wishes, and productivity.

This Week: Want to draw up a schedule.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Dark moods, overwhelmed at times, but my son being around lifts my spirits frequently and I am excited to be doing some things I am passionate about at times (such as dance and art).

Physical Health: Fighting something off, but comfortable at least.

Social Health: I want some time to reflect and get my house in order.


LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.โ€

– Roberto Assagioli

โ€œThere is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.โ€

Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week I was potted the onions into some “soil treys” and started expanding the top pond. This week we have company and to be honest, I want to be out in the garden working on a bed for the onions and the shape of the pond instead of spending time with people. On one hand, I see a lot of improvement in the kids’ behavior, teamwork, and listening to my rules and schedule, which is cool, but on the other hand, I see my home and garden messy and needing repairs, and those things not getting done with no one else to do them. Most of all I want to repair where the pond is broken. I accidentally emptied out the main pond and that was embarrassing, at least the fish could use the water change. Our backyard was hit hard by a hurricane-like storm called a Kona Low so going outside you see a lot of little damage and things and it’s hard to know what to do first, but on the upside I had been dying to move things around, so mixed blessings for it to be destroyed. I remember the aquaponic grow bed falling out forward and splashing down into the main pond all at once, the tarps all getting shredded by the wind and water, and the biggest tree getting pushed over. Being there was interesting, it gave me respect for the power of nature (even more) and also made me greatful to be inside, but I also know how things broke as opposed to my dad, who was away. The things he made were just broken, I at least got to see what stood and what fell and how to design for that. It was hard getting out of the house, but when we did we were able to do breakdancing for the first time, that was really fun.

Sunday: Last week I lived my best life building a pond and clearing the garden. This week I was helping some students, I was happy to be there for some math errors because when you see what math errors students are making it’s a lot more possible to help fix them. At the same time I worry that my pond will stay a big mess since I didn’t work on it at all this weekend, the supplies for that are piled up by the door, I was excited to buy them, excited to put them in, but if a long time goes by and I can’t work on it, I worry I will lose my place and momentum, I guess I struggle to trust myself.

Monday: Last week, I saw the first morning glories blooming on an Ohi’a tree, it was a metaphor for me of I guess me as a transplant to this new island and being able to live here and thrive or being able to make a difference in life and do things that have an effect on the world. It was one thing I wanted to do and see and it actually got done over time. I was so tired over all, my son has been waking up with growing pains, ice helps a lot, just got to remember we have it and what to do in the middle of the night. I didn’t do much Monday except be tired, managed to cook some pizza and bacon, but really couldn’t be super productive or even normal productive today.

Tuesday: Last week I did some more of the Mexican Sunflower hedge I can see that the ones I put in a few months ago are doing really well, fast approaching my height. This week was a birthday party, so in school training my daughter to use the dictionary and covering weathering from sand on rocks and that kind of stuff in science. It was a nice birthday party, not too much, but enough decorations, enough friends, good music, a cute cake, super awesome without being too much. I got to see the garden which was beautiful, tons of coffee, a lot of edibles, some ornamentals but not too much, really pretty set up, but so organized and functional (everything my garden is not). Someone reminded me you can take deep breaths to fight the feeling of overwhelm and I’m trying to remember that.

Wednesday: Last week we went to the beach and I noticed my son was better at swimming. This week we brought kid-grown produce, some blueberries, pumpkins, wheat, strawberries, and sunflowers, it made me happy that we grow a variety of things, even though we don’t have a large amount of stuff, we have some cool and diverse things for the kids to look at and enjoy. I felt inspired to grow more wheat and corn next year, but also happy we had something the kids got to grow themselves. This is the most peaceful I’ve ever been during the holiday season, I don’t feel pressured to participate in things I don’t want to do, I guess it’s the elders in your life that push that, kids don’t care if they get presents for x holiday or y holiday. I do like decoration, good food, and gratitude, but I don’t feel like it belongs to any day or group of people anymore, I think those things are there in all seasons for all people willing to take the energy to do those extra steps towards festivity.

Thursday: Last week I visited the train garden. This week I did a little gardening in my own yard and started the process of using the new electrical stuff I ordered bit by bit. I tidied up a little too. I worked on the pond actually, cutting back weeds, cutting down vines, laying land on a hilltop for the waterfall feature, I cut the extra liner with a sickle from the garden, it worked really well, I was investigating where the old leak was, but didn’t get that far before it was time to stop. The rain had filled up some of the new pond, it looks pretty. I made chocolate chip muffins, but they weren’t as good as blueberry. I was happy I had got back to work on the pond, I started the front West rock wall too and put some strawberries from a broken pot in trees, I moved the pot, moved an avocado tree that I’m not sure will make it. We lost our pet lizard Jumpy… I will miss Jumpy, but he did always look ill.

Friday: Two weeks ago I wanted to start exercising, spend more time outside, draw more, do music, get the house cleaned, finish the paperwork, be a good person, and stay organized. Last week I wanted to also, but I knew it would take some strategy. This week our gecko Jumpy is dead, but we bought a $200 cage for him so I wonder if we should get another gecko or not. It felt like a hectic week this week, I feel like strings of all the loose ends I started and didn’t finish are wrapping me up in a huge net of unfinished business. I wanted to cut the pumpkin plants from last year, but I didn’t yet because we had guests, the kids seemed full of joy but also tired from the change in light as well. We were able to link a Nintendo account I had been wanting to get linked since March, which felt nice, I thought that would be an issue forever.


Gratitude

Something new this week: The morning glories I wanted have succeeded, I hope to put in more, but I’m already captivated by their beauty and it works in harmony between the land that was here and what I put in and that was really important to me.

Something good this week: I looked up a cure for hives, TCM Traditional Chinese Medicine has one that works in clinical trials not just to bring them down, but to keep them away, I suffered so long with hives on a daily basis, now I’m better, but it feels like completing a cycle to find a cure anyways.

Something unexpected: Jumpy our gecko died, I should have expected it, but I didn’t, when I really like pets I can’t be honest about their mortality expectations.

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๐Ÿฆ‹ 2022 Forty-Fifth Week ๐Ÿง…

Passion rules reason, for better or for worse. Terry Goodkind ๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ

GOALS THIS WEEK: I want to start exercising, spend more time outside, draw more, do music, get the house cleaned, finish the paperwork, be a good person, and stay organized.

Last Week: Made it through being ill and the kids being ill.

This Week: Want to think about when to do what.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Settling into the fall/winter transition and invigorated to be alive again.

Physical Health: Medium.

Social Health: Glad to have friends, but also want to reflect a lot more, I feel like I’m digesting a lot of thoughts right now and I need time to think.


LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.โ€

– Roberto Assagioli

โ€œThere is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.โ€

Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week passed in a blur, did a study montage with a friend’s son, enjoyed it, it was kind of a weird study marathon, but I hope it helped somehow. Today is the first day with just my family in a week and we all miss our exchange student. But I was able to pot up the onions into some “soil treys” and start expanding the top pond, cut weeds to walk to the top of the little hill, did the basic shape of the waterfall dams, dragged the pond liner out, unfolded it, then the day was over already, so. Got to do some touch ups on the sides and surrounding stones, but it’s good to have the liner there I think so I know how big it really is and avoid redoing work because the liner is too small or big.

I really enjoy the different views the different parts of the garden have. I hope to make this top pond deeper than it was and prettier, the middle pond needs some repair still, I hope to get to that tomorrow. I also want to separate the fish pond and this pond so any leak won’t kill the fish, and maybe move the blue pond up to the hill someday too…

Sunday: Last week fall weather hit hard, which feels like a monsoon in our area. This week I’m used to the new weather and mostly better from being sick for about a week. I feel good now, weeded to put in a new veggie bed, but realized I might want yet another pond there. Worked on the top of the middle pond more using cut grass for underlayment which was cool, but wasn’t an option last time because I didn’t have grass then. Moving the logs around felt fun. It’s been awhile since I watched Carl the Landscape Guy’s pond video, I started watching it again to refresh my memory. He has a lawn and soil, that’s different than me, I have to cut back weeds, then I have to build up over lava rock instead of digging down, but I do have a natural slope so I don’t have to work as hard making a hill. I don’t have any bricks, I may have used some if I had some, but I blew my budget for the month already so I’ll try to use either what I have or scrap wood from the storm. So if I can tomorrow I’ll work on leveling out the dams a little bit better, perhaps with logs under the liner. Right now the bottom section is doubled over the old top, I can cut that and reuse it for the broken middle section. I wanted to make sure the liner fit and I did that, but I could definety do a little more shape work on the dams before testing the liner with water.

So A. Cut the old liner.

B. Shape the bottom dams.

C. Cut the weeds around the top to walk.

D. Start shaping the top dam.

E. Rock my bottoms near the shelves, then level the top stones, foam the stones near the shelf, rock the bottom of the shelves after the dam.

F. Lay the pipes along the sides tuck the liner and rock both sides of the edge shelf.

G. Remove excess foam.

H. Fill with hose to check water flow.

I. Build the top waterfall.

J. Foam the top waterfall securely.

K. Rock the top section.

L. Set up the plumbing.

M. Set up the electrical plugs for the pump.

N. Set up any lighting (I don’t have a lot yet).

O. Set up box (waiting to buy it).

P. Rock and neaten the sides hiding the liner.

Q. Fill with small stones supporting the larger stones. .

R. Boarder of path.

S. Large stones for raised bed.

T. Plants.

U. Level paths and plant areas.

V. Weed cloth on rasied bed and path.

W. Mulch on plant area.

X. 16-32 mm gravel on pathway.

Looking at this I think I will expand the veggie tunnel to in front of the koa tree instead of where it is… the koa tree is six feet tall now.

Monday: Last week, I did the first activity of the Digital Illustration Class, an eye, which was fun. I was also overwhelmed with my garden and I am still right now. I didn’t water the Comfrey yesterday because the little can was missing from the green house. Today I did water the comfrey with pond water, I found some borers in the pumpkin, I cut the tomato which was doing bad from Early Blight, I trashed it instead of compost, which was a little sad. I put more soil in the garden and more mulch because it was a really shallow bed.

This front area isn’t perfect, but I’m happy to see the morning glories climbing the trees and the pumpkin has made almost a full circle around the tree. I like the front rockwall that I built, I like the sunflowers growing there, I’m sure it will be more beautiful when the sunflowers add their color, but it’s on the way. I was grateful to get composted mulch from East Hawaii Organics, next time I can get more I just have to remember to bring a bucket for transferring and a pitchfork to load (instead of a trowel…). I hope my watermelons will do well, not sure at this point. Loosing the tomatoes was okay, I noticed from the beginning flies were coming inside where they were and that they looked like they had early blight, I’ll start again. Going to try Mountain Magic this time around, it’s supposed to resist Early Blight.

I want to put a bottom pond in, so I got a liner for that, a power box for the top one, I want to get the ponds fixed up so that I can build a better aquaponic system, I just need to make a few adjustments so the system doesn’t get clogged.

Tuesday: Last week I was doing some extra science tutoring and it was very rewarding to have a student who was open minded and enthusiastic about doing some states of matter experiments, making some hypothesis and seeing that real life gives us results we don’t expect.

This place I set aside a border in the spring wanting to grow rhubarb, then was busy with the kids school and camping and scouting and didn’t come back until October. Adding a weed cloth and brown mulch path helps so much, when weeds grow through or on top they are much weaker than otherwise and when they grow across I can see immediately where to cut them back to, it gives me a place to store the compost from East Hawaii Organics for now. I put vermiculite, sea kelp powder, steer manure, chicken manure and composted mulch into the grow bed with straw, I enjoy working with straw, it really has a farm vibe I like. Cutting back the weeds out of this area is going to be way easier and passing through this area is going to be way easier, the plants are going to grow better with this soil, yes I would like to have made it on site with no waste and carbon foot print, but I didn’t have the mental and physical energy to do that this time. I am just starting to learn how to do compost and leaf mulch and I don’t think I would want to garden if I had to wait however long it takes to make all my own soil. I do really like taking the time to load the composted mulch from East Hawaii Organics, it’s not too much cheaper to buy the containers and make an extra trip, but it feels really good to be a part of them diverting waste from the landfill and standing as an organic non-profit in our area, I feel grateful when I’m driving home and when I’m adding to my garden, I don’t know if I should be finishing out the compost further or not, but I am happy I’m finally starting to source local stuff. I think when I do start to get a better compost system set up I will set it up here next to the green house and I’ll call it Southeast Hawaii Organics as a tribute to East Hawaii Organics compost system. My favorite thing in this garden is my son’s apple tree. I’m building a little planter next to the path on the right I’ll move his other apple tree there so you can walk between the two someday. There is a No. 1 Idea hydroponic system I want to try to build right next to the rock wall, still mentally debating it… Love the idea but in ground would be more my style and plastic would feel safer than glass with so many kids in my life. I’m excited to see the front garden going through so many changes, I’ve been learning a lot about landscaping helping friends in our Farm Together Program.

I want to do the Mexican Sunflower boarder today, I took a lot of cuttings two days ago, but it’s really hard trenching them into my poor and rocky soil. At least this time I have an augur and a mattock, the first time I did 100 with a trowel and at the end it broke and that really seemed fair for it to break. I kind of knew it was the wrong tool, but I still don’t know exactly what the right one is. I did do a bit of work, cutting back the weeds to walk to where I am going to work is usually the worst part, because I don’t see any progress on the goal task, but it’s a necessary part of being able to work on the goal.

Wednesday: Last week we stayed home from the beach sick, but some people went and that is cool, that we can take time off but the community doesn’t collapse. This week was art week, we didn’t have painting, but we did have oil and water, so it was fun having principal boxes, we did double leg takedowns. I spent some time with my family in the beginning of the day and it was awesome watching my little boy swim, he really picked it up without me noticing.

Thursday: Last week I soaked 8 kinds of onions, this week they are growing into pretty good little transplants. I visited the train garden, built a little desk, was learning more about what plants the gardener liked, what building they were planning, still trying to get a feel for the garden and landscape, checking out drainage ext. It’s a different garden then mine, more frogs, hoping they eat the other pests, but not sure at all, still trying to make sense of that ecosystem.

Friday: Last week I wanted to start exercising, spend more time outside, draw more, do music, get the house cleaned, finish the paperwork, be a good person, and stay organized. This week I still want to, but I definitely feel tired by the seasonal weather changes and want to be strategic. I made a soup by myself, it was a bit salty, but pretty close to on target, so that surprised me, it always surprises me how much work goes into some dishes. We made nan and it was pretty decently good, not like the restaurant, but pretty decent, even though I like fry bread better alone I like nan bread better with soup, I think I’m like nan bread, I make room for other people to be themself in my life.

But anyway, the week was a good week overall, caught a small gecko named Jumpy, had some good times in the ocean, pretty good week despite the unwanted invites to winter stuff and feeling of doom the end of the year seems to have.


Gratitude

Something new this week: The onion starts came up a lot better indoors than when I tried to grow them outdoors in the past.

Something good this week: I really enjoyed the ocean the way I used to when I was growing up, as if it is magic, as if it is okay to have fun.

Something unexpected: We caught a little baby gecko named Jumpy, I think they are easier than frogs and chameleons because they can eat non-live foods so I’m willing to try to see how it goes keeping jumpy.

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๐Ÿฆ‹ 2022 Forty-Forth Week โœ๏ธ

“Kindness and good intentions can be an insidious path to destruction. Sometimes doing what seems right is wrong, and can cause harm.” Terry Goodkind ๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ

GOALS THIS WEEK: Surprised to be cleaning the house for the end of the year already.

Last Week: Wanted to make some more strategic plans and think about what to cut out to make time for paperwork.

This Week: Got to make it through the kids being ill before I can realistically do extra new habits.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Been dark and gloomy and angry, but also grateful and satisfied and aware of what’s going on in my life and mind.

Physical Health: Sick with what is going around town again.

Social Health: Noticing where I need to be assertive, set boundaries, take more time to myself, but also it’s hard because I am a bleeding heart for my friends.


LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.โ€

– Roberto Assagioli

โ€œThere is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.โ€

Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week putting sunflowers in was cool because the flowers were a gift to me, a gift into a gift, something beautiful about that. This week passed in a blur, had my daughter’s friend for a sleep over, trying to encourage good study habits, you wonder if what you say falls on deaf ears about school leading to skills that matter, but you never really know if the school work really does matter for a kid without knowing where they are headed, where the world is headed, what jobs or pursuits will even exist in 10 or 20 years? But though the school work or maybe school may not matter, being the captain of your own soul and your own life I think will always matter, so time management, opportunity cost, good communication, honesty with yourself, I think learning any of that is worth the effort.

Sunday: Last week a lovely Halloween party after going to the zoo. Here I am a week later and I can’t believe it’s only been a week. Fall weather hit hard, which feels like a monsoon in our area. It feels dark, cold, somehow the days feel tired and it seems not just our family, but most families are sick with the cold weather transition. I can’t believe just last week we were franticly getting ready for Halloween and hoping to do things with the year still, now it feels like there is only one breath left in this year. I am halfway inspired to do something cool with these last slivers of year, but halfway tempted to gather strength for next year and start reflecting on what I am and who I am now.

Monday: Last week, was Halloween day, it was a nice night singing with the kids at home. This week I spent my whole garden budget, this week I haven’t yet been able to catch up with gardening, but I didn’t know I would be sick. We did do some Krita Art Class, and I did the first activity of the Digital Illustration Class, an eye, which was fun. I guess I’ve slowly gotten used to the computer tablet over time. We did some Duolingo classes, I haven’t been as active as I wanted to be with that as an individual, but I am happy to have started some other students with it.

Tuesday: Last week I was reflecting on the Permaculture Principal: Use the edges and value the marginal, it did inspire me to clean and garden, but being sick and especially the kids being sick drained me so that not a lot of progress happened between last week and this week. I try to surrender to the fact I will lose days and weeks to being sick and to taking care of my kids, but emotionally I still resist accepting that I won’t always make progress toward what I care about. A student caught up on science class, the first in his family, when I asked what he wanted to do he said “Scientist,” which is awesome. There actually are a good amount of science jobs in this area, Oceanography, Astronomy, everything at the college, it’s not a bad job market in our location.

Wednesday: Last week wonderful day, we did karate three times, we did giant bubbles. This week we stayed home from the beach sick, the complete opposite. But I did do some Non-Profit Corporate Bylaws Paperwork and I have more to do… A student caught up on math class today, it was nice, emotionally we moved from I’m not a good student, to I’m a good student, but I hate math, to I’m a good student and I don’t hate math, but it is boring and from I’m not going to do it to I’m going to do it and don’t know why I need it to, I know why I need it, I am going to do it, but I don’t like it. Eventually, I want to get to I am good at math, and math is a tool that helps me do things I really enjoy.

Thursday: Last week I did research crop rotation and think about what I wanted to do. This week I am soaking 8 kinds of onions to see what grows well where I am and start crop rotation at step 1 the Alliaceae family. Covered a bit of reading coordinated some paperwork stuff. I am now feeling positive about the longer 501 process, that being so hard it is also a good opportunity to set the tone for the future of what kind of conduct, values and principles we expect to take place when we are gone if the Adventure Scouts are sill around to ensure that it doesn’t become cookie laundering for just girls, while boys go on kayak trips and adventures.

Friday: Last week got two tubs of yard waste off a fence. This week did our cooking, which I was tired to get started on. We covered some English, which I remembered not liking, and set up some foreign languages. I was proud one of the students was exercising and jealous also. I want to start exercising, I want to spend more time outside, I want to draw more and do music and get the house cleaned. I want to finish the paperwork and be a good person and stay organized, will I ever do all those things?

Another week bites the dust… and another one’s gone.


Secret Forest to Farm

Plant Care – People Care – Fair Share

Cherry Blossom – Waiting for cold germination. โŒ›

Lavender – Cold stratified, germinated via heat mat single-side paper towel and light. The seedlings look fine. Doing a second germination. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Sunflower – Germinated in 3 days after 24 hour soak. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Morning Glory – Germinated in 1 day via cup of water to paper towels > grow bags > Distributed. Growing well. ๐ŸŒฑ They look good some are vining now. Some pest damage on the leaves, center holes medium size.

Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via paper towel. Grown. Distributed. Some early blight! Some that went into the community are growing fruit already. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden A. ๐Ÿ”ฎ

Blueberry – Germinated in a few weeks paper towel method, spouts are so tiny, but doing well.

Raspberry – Germinating…

Koa – Germinated first week and kept staggered germination. The one from last year is looking beautiful.

Something new this week: Did a kind of accelerated learning boot camp with a student for the first time, interesting, I hope it was helpful for them.

Something good this week: I stayed home from the beach because we were sick and didn’t feel bad, which is good, something shifted with my boundaries where I enjoy my friends, but don’t feel obligated to take care of myself or my family first.

Something unexpected: We has a guest who asked me if I was ever going to use the fountain top in the garden, which just came.

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๐Ÿฆ‹ 2022 Forty-Third Week โ›…

“People are stupid; given proper motivation, almost anyone will believe almost anything. Because people are stupid, they will believe a lie because they want to believe it’s true, or because they are afraid it might be true.” Terry Goodkind ๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ

GOALS THIS WEEK: Celebrating and realizing the year is almost through.

Last Week: Taking stock and making it through the three birthday pile up in the end of October.

This Week: Want to make some more strategic plans and think about what to cut out to make time for paperwork.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Feel like almost at peace with the year, kind of want to do MORE.

Physical Health: Fighting off flus, drinking tea, pretty comfortable, but not all the way normal.

Social Health: Trying to ignore my friends more and do more paperwork, or hang out “smarter”.


LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.โ€

– Roberto Assagioli

โ€œThere is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.โ€

Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week we came home from camping. This week putting sunflowers in, it was cool did about 50, but, definitely need to weed that garden further… these Mexican Sunflowers are pretty, but their leaves make great fertilizer and they create a great farm ambiance which is food for the soul. The bright yellow is such a healing color for my heart, I’m surprised the heart’s colors are not officially yellow. This garden is on a steep slope, I’m not an expert at working with that, but I think perhaps those grid messes filled with soil or gravel would shore up paths and plant levels…

Sunday: Last week we had my daughter’s friend over. This week a lovely Halloween party after going to the zoo for Halloween pictures and a different friend stayed over, who we hadn’t had over in a long time. The party was so beautifully done with glow sticks and buckets, tons of food, a spooky trail, trick or treat, a memorial altar with candles. It was so cool and so thoughtful. My kids didn’t want to wear their costumes, I should try to remember not to get them expensive ones, because they can’t tolerate being uncomfortable. It’s a time of year death is on my mind, but it’s nice having company in the fall because I like to be a hermit in the winter.

Monday: Last week, we started playing Pokemon cards online it was a cool thing to start doing, I didn’t realize how well made they made the online system. This year Day of the Dead rolled into Halloween then ever before, but it was nice singing with the kids, bringing out our dead pets and butterflies lights, and experiencing a celebration of our dead that was actually fun, I guess it replaced the Obon we missed, where we would have danced around and remembered our ancestors in the summer if it hadn’t been canceled for the 3rd time by the pandemic. Good riddance it seems like to shutdowns that I don’t think were done in a smart, effective way. If there are no masks in 2023 it will be better than 2022, I didn’t know I liked showing off my face, but I guess I do and I know I like breathing well in hot weather and not having one more thing to remember that is a fight with my kids.

Monthly Garden Budget

This is for the pond, I hope to repair it. $35 for a 100-foot cord. $25 for the electrical spike, so $60 of electrical that you don’t even notice in a pond. Tape to fix the leak that has been on my plate all year bothering me at the back of my mind $17, new top peice for the the waterfall $38 and $83 so like $197 for pond repair/upgrade.

$38 for the train garden edging.

For the garden we haven’t started yet, $20 of decor to try to kick off the theme, $25 of veggie beds that will still need soil.

$30 of grafting stuff for more avocado-tomato experiments at least the greenhouse is back up so I have somewhere for these kinds of tools to be.

So I spent November’s budget on Halloween Night, but mostly I made these notes to see how long it takes me to install this stuff.

Tuesday: Last week started cleaning up the office after camping. This week the house could use some more cleaning. Use the edges and value the marginal is the permaculture principle for this month, maybe I can use that to help me clean up the house not only to help with the garden.

Wednesday: Last week we had a music week at the beach. This week was wonderful day, we did karate three times, we did giant bubbles. It was kind of painful how nice of a day it was. It’s painful feeling the peace and joy and knowing it’s a high water mark, or thinking that. It’s painful thinking those not with us are gone and we can so easily forget them and be in the moment and someday we will be gone and other people will party like it’s their birthday like we did today. I don’t know what makes it painful, but it is painful. It was nice seeing kids not usually happy, happy, seeing kids that got to know eachother more opening up, it was just a nice day with clean water and good company and abundance of everything good from art supplies to laughter to help to good weather. The kind of day that spoils other days.

Thursday: Last week I did an installment of a train garden. This week was much different, visited a friend, noticed my garden was growing. It’s so rainy today, it’s quite soothing, but really makes me feel like staying inside. I didn’t do a lot of outside farming, but I did research crop rotation and think about what I wanted to do.

Friday: Last week we did some drawing for once! I had been wanting to do that for a long time. Got two tubs of yard waste off a fense, but it seemed difficult to get started, kind of a chaotic day with the yonger kids and emotional one with the older ones. The garden is doing well overall though. I learn a lot from group thinking and have a lot of fun, but it also kind of keeps me from reflecting. Some times I feel like I need silence to catch up with all the words I’ve said, heard and thought throughout the day or week. I’m grateful to have friends and community, it gives me perspective and insight and new ideas, but also I feel like there are too many good ideas and too few good actions for my taste and I want to make sure we don’t get side tracked as a group more than I want to be a part of as an individual. I get scared to loose track of plans vs ideas and jump from idea to idea without further details, planning and action, that’s not something I’m interested in chasing or encouraging, it’s not something I value and although I’m guilty of having those tendencies I want to make sure I commit to being more consistent and focused bit by bit rather than less consistent and focused. It’s human nature to want to do a lot, but it’s not the path to the future I want to bite off chunks and spit them out or choke on them.

Another week bites the dust… and another one’s gone.


Secret Forest to Farm

Plant Care – People Care – Fair Share

Cherry Blossom – Waiting for cold germination. โŒ›

Lavender – Cold stratified, germinated via heat mat single-side paper towel and light. The seedlings look fine. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Sunflower – Germinated in 3 days after 24 hour soak. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Morning Glory – Germinated in 1 day via cup of water to paper towels > grow bags > Distributed. Growing well. ๐ŸŒฑ They look good some are vining now. Some pest damage on the leaves, center holes medium size.

Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via paper towel. Grown. Distributed. Some early blight! Some that went into the community are growing fruit already. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden A. ๐Ÿ”ฎ

Blueberry – Germinated in a few weeks paper towel method, spouts are so tiny, but doing well.

Raspberry – Germinating…

Koa – Germinated first week and kept stagared germination.

Something new this week: Buying fountain repair stuff, I’m excited to try to fix that.

Something good this week: The kids enjoyed the slime and bubbles. Sometimes they do and sometimes they don’t…

Something unexpected: The strange happiness of watching pumpkins grow.

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๐Ÿ‘ป 2022 Forty-second Week ๐Ÿชฆ

Darkness cannotย drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. – Martin Luther King Jr. ๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ

GOALS THIS WEEK: Celebrating and realizing the year is almost through.

Last Week: Camping always takes a lot of clean up.

This Week: Plants waiting to be tended.

HEALTH OVERVIEW:

Mental Health: Enjoying the fall, but it does feel hectic as well.

Physical Health: Doing medium okay energy, but kind of fighting being sick.

Social Health: Feel kind of overwhelmed, almost forgot about the math decathlon.


LIFE JOURNAL:

“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.โ€

– Roberto Assagioli

โ€œThere is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.โ€

Mary Anne Radmacher

Saturday: Last week my husband came to visit. It feels like a long time ago already now. This Saturday was the day we came home from camping, hiked the lava tube and sent my husband back on the airplane. One day of camping is kind of enough for me right now with my 3-year-old. The kids made movies this time around, I was happy with the amount of kids who participated and the attention to detail they showed. I added music with Movavi and had the videos up on our website, adventurescoutshawaii.org pretty fast, so pretty proud of myself actually.

Sunday: Last week I put down the path and new garden bed I was so happy so much got done. A new garden bed makes me feel like a farmer again. This week we had my daughter’s friend over, so we were doing some joint study, a lot of spelling, reading, language study ext. It was good for us because she would throw spelling fits with me, but together with her friends she didn’t want to throw fits so it saved us a lot of spelling fits. It’s been more work adjusting to more kids, but it’s been helpful overall now that a lot of time and curriculum has passed I can see how they add relevance to one another.

butterfly catch

Monday: Last week, my husband said I could have a $300/month budget to work on the garden. This week we started playing Pokemon cards online and did some study groups. It was fun to see the kids happy, but on the other hand, my paperwork is just waiting I can’t do it with constant interruptions. I didn’t want to stop “working” on our projects to do the paperwork, but also I haven’t finished that, so there is that conflict between responsibility and creativity that never seems to go away in my heart. It’s been a fun year compared to most the years of my life, but also draining to navigate the post-pandemic social norms.

Tuesday: Last week got a domain name for our scout group, adventurescoutshawaii.org. This week started cleaning up the office after camping, not everything is clean, but a lot more got done this time than in the summer, camping is hard, but I’m getting used to it more and more. My kids both worked hard in reading and completed their English classes. I’m proud of my kids, they are both really smart, the older they get, the more I see it, but as a result I feel that I have to do more with them since they can understand it, so it becomes a cross to bear in a way that I feel they could be finishing their basics faster and doing advanced work mixed in with it.

Wednesday: Last week my daughter had her 7th birthday party. This week we had a music week at the beach, it was bittersweet to see some friends before they had to leave, but I think good to see them too. It was the Math Decathalon and it was nice to have it over for the year actually. I’m happy with what got done, but I also want to shift to more creative pursuits as the seasons shift. I’ve gotten used to the pain of loss more this year than I expected to, the economy is shifting a lot of people away from where I live, people who stay have to pair down to what is essential, work double hard just to live normally or leave.

Thursday: Last I was getting ready for camping. This week I did an installment of a train garden, that was fun, also watermelons, which got stalled to plant and I wonder if it will affect them, they also may have early blight from white flies or just been over eaten by flea beetles. Told a friend I want to wake up and do paperwork in the mornings and I do want to… but so far I haven’t made the habit. Things are not perfect, but the little garden projects that I have done have soothed me and calmed me down, definitely my ikagai, where as teaching the kids is my duty, gardening is my passion and writing is my therapy. It could be a different mix for a different person, but that’s how it is for me.

Friday: Last week camping was fun. This week it seems like I need to organize and also check in with my plants. Had some friends over, it was a bit hard between cooking and teaching, every time I do both I know I prefer teaching to cooking. My mind keeps spinning at night lately, something pretty uncommon for me, when I was young I had to write my thoughts down to sleep sometimes, maybe I’m returning to the person I used to be, who I can barely remember.

Another week bites the dust…


Secret Forest to Farm

Plant Care – People Care – Fair Share

Cherry Blossom – Waiting for cold germination. โŒ›

Lavender – Cold stratified, germinated via heat mat single-side paper towel and light. The seedlings look fine. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Sunflower – Germinated in 3 days after 24 hour soak. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Morning Glory – Germinated in 1 day via cup of water to paper towels > grow bags > Distributed. Growing well. ๐ŸŒฑ They look good some are vining now. Some pest damage on the leaves, center holes medium size.

Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via paper towel. Grown. Distributed. Some early blight! Some that went into the community are growing fruit already. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden A. ๐Ÿ”ฎ

Blueberry – Germinated in a few weeks paper towel method, spouts are so tiny, but doing well.

Raspberry – Germinating…

Koa – Germinated first week and kept stagared germination.

Something new this week: The story boards from camping were filmed, and that film is online so kids can see their own work on the internet, I find that really cool.

Something good this week: Installed a train set I was putting off.

Something unexpected: My kids finished their school work, so they can do more creative stuff and work ahead.

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