“Kindness and good intentions can be an insidious path to destruction. Sometimes doing what seems right is wrong, and can cause harm.” – Terry Goodkind ๐๏ธ
GOALS THIS WEEK: Surprised to be cleaning the house for the end of the year already.
Last Week: Wanted to make some more strategic plans and think about what to cut out to make time for paperwork.
This Week: Got to make it through the kids being ill before I can realistically do extra new habits.
HEALTH OVERVIEW:
Mental Health: Been dark and gloomy and angry, but also grateful and satisfied and aware of what’s going on in my life and mind.
Physical Health: Sick with what is going around town again.
Social Health: Noticing where I need to be assertive, set boundaries, take more time to myself, but also it’s hard because I am a bleeding heart for my friends.
LIFE JOURNAL:
“Without forgiveness life is governed by an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.โ
– Roberto Assagioli
โThere is no small act of kindness. Every compassionate act makes large the world.โ
–Mary Anne Radmacher
Saturday: Last week putting sunflowers in was cool because the flowers were a gift to me, a gift into a gift, something beautiful about that. This week passed in a blur, had my daughter’s friend for a sleep over, trying to encourage good study habits, you wonder if what you say falls on deaf ears about school leading to skills that matter, but you never really know if the school work really does matter for a kid without knowing where they are headed, where the world is headed, what jobs or pursuits will even exist in 10 or 20 years? But though the school work or maybe school may not matter, being the captain of your own soul and your own life I think will always matter, so time management, opportunity cost, good communication, honesty with yourself, I think learning any of that is worth the effort.
Sunday: Last week a lovely Halloween party after going to the zoo. Here I am a week later and I can’t believe it’s only been a week. Fall weather hit hard, which feels like a monsoon in our area. It feels dark, cold, somehow the days feel tired and it seems not just our family, but most families are sick with the cold weather transition. I can’t believe just last week we were franticly getting ready for Halloween and hoping to do things with the year still, now it feels like there is only one breath left in this year. I am halfway inspired to do something cool with these last slivers of year, but halfway tempted to gather strength for next year and start reflecting on what I am and who I am now.
Monday: Last week, was Halloween day, it was a nice night singing with the kids at home. This week I spent my whole garden budget, this week I haven’t yet been able to catch up with gardening, but I didn’t know I would be sick. We did do some Krita Art Class, and I did the first activity of the Digital Illustration Class, an eye, which was fun. I guess I’ve slowly gotten used to the computer tablet over time. We did some Duolingo classes, I haven’t been as active as I wanted to be with that as an individual, but I am happy to have started some other students with it.
Tuesday: Last week I was reflecting on the Permaculture Principal: Use the edges and value the marginal, it did inspire me to clean and garden, but being sick and especially the kids being sick drained me so that not a lot of progress happened between last week and this week. I try to surrender to the fact I will lose days and weeks to being sick and to taking care of my kids, but emotionally I still resist accepting that I won’t always make progress toward what I care about. A student caught up on science class, the first in his family, when I asked what he wanted to do he said “Scientist,” which is awesome. There actually are a good amount of science jobs in this area, Oceanography, Astronomy, everything at the college, it’s not a bad job market in our location.
Wednesday: Last week wonderful day, we did karate three times, we did giant bubbles. This week we stayed home from the beach sick, the complete opposite. But I did do some Non-Profit Corporate Bylaws Paperwork and I have more to do… A student caught up on math class today, it was nice, emotionally we moved from I’m not a good student, to I’m a good student, but I hate math, to I’m a good student and I don’t hate math, but it is boring and from I’m not going to do it to I’m going to do it and don’t know why I need it to, I know why I need it, I am going to do it, but I don’t like it. Eventually, I want to get to I am good at math, and math is a tool that helps me do things I really enjoy.
Thursday: Last week I did research crop rotation and think about what I wanted to do. This week I am soaking 8 kinds of onions to see what grows well where I am and start crop rotation at step 1 the Alliaceae family. Covered a bit of reading coordinated some paperwork stuff. I am now feeling positive about the longer 501 process, that being so hard it is also a good opportunity to set the tone for the future of what kind of conduct, values and principles we expect to take place when we are gone if the Adventure Scouts are sill around to ensure that it doesn’t become cookie laundering for just girls, while boys go on kayak trips and adventures.
Friday: Last week got two tubs of yard waste off a fence. This week did our cooking, which I was tired to get started on. We covered some English, which I remembered not liking, and set up some foreign languages. I was proud one of the students was exercising and jealous also. I want to start exercising, I want to spend more time outside, I want to draw more and do music and get the house cleaned. I want to finish the paperwork and be a good person and stay organized, will I ever do all those things?
Another week bites the dust… and another one’s gone.
Secret Forest to Farm
Cherry Blossom – Waiting for cold germination. โ
Lavender – Cold stratified, germinated via heat mat single-side paper towel and light. The seedlings look fine. Doing a second germination. ๐๐ผ
Sunflower – Germinated in 3 days after 24 hour soak. Grown. Distributed. Growing well. ๐๐ผ
Morning Glory – Germinated in 1 day via cup of water to paper towels > grow bags > Distributed. Growing well. ๐ฑ They look good some are vining now. Some pest damage on the leaves, center holes medium size.
Roma Tomato – Germinated in 2 days via paper towel. Grown. Distributed. Some early blight! Some that went into the community are growing fruit already. ๐๐ผ
Clover, Alfalfa – For the Hilo Garden A. ๐ฎ
Blueberry – Germinated in a few weeks paper towel method, spouts are so tiny, but doing well.
Raspberry – Germinating…
Koa – Germinated first week and kept staggered germination. The one from last year is looking beautiful.
Something new this week: Did a kind of accelerated learning boot camp with a student for the first time, interesting, I hope it was helpful for them.
Something good this week: I stayed home from the beach because we were sick and didn’t feel bad, which is good, something shifted with my boundaries where I enjoy my friends, but don’t feel obligated to take care of myself or my family first.
Something unexpected: We has a guest who asked me if I was ever going to use the fountain top in the garden, which just came.
Born to Be Alive 