Be the change you wish to see in the world.– Author Unknown
Saturday/Creative Day: Last week we went skateboarding. This week a day of transition, we picked up my husband, ended the main cleaning session of our Clutter Fight Club… We had a nice burger, saw a pretty sunset. Got home late after helping change a tire. I had my hair dyed and re-pierced my nose, it makes me feel younger because that is how I had it when I was younger, I like it. I’m not a conservative person and I don’t really like to look conservative, but as parent I didn’t prioritize my hair or fashion for a long time. I’m getting some things done, but I still have the feeling I want to make more progress on other things. So I feel good and bad about what I have been able to do. My son’s birthday is coming soon so I am starting to feel excited about it more now that the other cleaning is done and now that my husband is here to help me with things. My husband came back Saturday. I ended my Kaizen Blitz and loaded up the garden party things. It was nice, we had a hamburger, helped fix a flat tire. I didn’t know how it would feel, but it felt peaceful and nice.
Sunday/Faith Day: Last week we went to the Observatory’s 10th year anniversary. It feels like a long time ago just a week later. We went to Essence Island and let the kids swim and play. I wanted to support our local dance class, but I was too sick. We did go to the beach but just sat and rested as we waited for the kids to finish playing and swimming.
Monday/Unity Day: Last week I went back for a third week of cleaning. This week we did garden club, it was super fun. The kids were running around all happy, on the skate ramp, the trampoline, the farm… I was happy too, putting in a welded wire arch for chayote, putting in grow beds, mixing soil. The arch needs some bamboo for support.
Tuesday/Self-Determination: Last week I had some fry bread that was delicious and cleaned. This week was festive because my son’s birthday was coming up. I didn’t slow down enough to be sad. My son is so smart and sweet, I feel better watching him grow than I did with my daughter who seemed to lack support and have lagging skills, my son seems well liked, supported and growing well, so there is nothing to regret.
Wednesday/Collective Work Day: Last week we stayed home with a sore throat and extreme weather warnings not to go out. This week went well in some ways, the kids had fun with a ramp, my son had a happy birthday, I gave away lilies, but in a different way I saw how hard it was on my friends to host such a large event with me each week, it’s been hard on me too, so it’s time for a change of pace and change of place again to go back to our roots of who we are and also who we want to be now.
Thursday/Cooperative Economics Day: Last week I was decluttering and cleaning. This week ordered Mamake and ‘Ohia seeds from a local non-profit seed bank. I had to think about what we wanted to do, what I wanted to do, what we may be able to do, what we are going to do now and this weekend, then I checked in with the people I could check with.
Friday/Creativity Day: Last week I stayed up really late working on the Pokemon Periodic Table of Elements version 2. This week took my son out for lunch for his 4th birthday and went to Home Depot, got excited there was waterproof mortar. We were able to stain the picnic table today, five of us worked on it and it went faster than I expected, it looks really pretty with dark brown stain. Went out and gathered ‘Ohia seeds to reforest, my goal is to give 10 friends 10 trees each year, so 100 a year, as well as posting the process. I bought some demold spray again.
GARDEN CLUB GOALS: Front: Stone Road, Milkweed. Back: Safe Paths. Front-Front: Mamake. Site 2: Assess. Practice Ladder Knott. Test Ladder. Site 3: Cherry Tree Support, Organize Plant Starts. Site 4: Central Clearing, Moon Arch, Sun and Moon Beds, Squash Trellis 2.0 Reshape. Solar pump.
FARM TOGETHER GOALS: Growing 12 kale, 2 rosemary, 1 pear tomatoes, 2 butter lettuce, a bunch of basil. Also starting mamake, ‘Ohia (0/100) and hopefully sandalwood and koa to reforest. Hoping for a watermelon field this year.
PROJECTS: Assemble picnic table. Waterproof mortar for pond.
CLUTTER FIGHT CLUB: Demold living room.
Last Year to This Year
Last Year: I was sick with a sore throat like I am now, stressed out by my son’s birthday being surrounded by other birthdays, responsibilities and events. Last year I was better on top of school this week, but I don’t think my kids were sick, I don’t like to push them when they aren’t doing well. This year I am more laid back, last year was a sad and hard year more than this one. I learned this last year: א (alef), ב (beit) , ג (gimel), ד, (daled), ה (hei), ו, (vav), ז (Zain), ח, (get), ט (tet), י (yod), כ (kaf), ל (lamed), מ (mem), נ (noon), ס (sameh), ע (Ain), פ (pey), צ( tsadik), ק (kuf), ר (reish) , ש (shin), ת (taf) and don’t want to forget.
This Year: I am more aware of myself and what bothers me, still stressed, but less ashamed to be human and to be myself. I still have a lot of goals that are the same from last year to this year, but I also see completed goals of things I wanted to do and then did do. I have too many building and garden goals that are above my skill level, it’s okay as long as I’m okay with it taking time to achieve them. Usually my goals aren’t relevant from one year to the next, but this year the goals I set last year still feel current, like a year hasn’t passed in my heart – only on the calendar. I don’t know why last year bled into this one, but the pandemic felt like it melted year separating rituals and events and also year ending ones…
Live – Lift – Love
Live – I feel really alive gardening and now woodworking, I feel really alive at the beach, but don’t mind a break. I want to keep doing things that allow me to feel alive, but the things can change. I am excited to try to repair my green house and plant milkweed in the front garden.
Lift – I am helping my friends, but I am trying to do what I can and not more than I can. One friend needs accountability getting her space in order, one needs distance from a painful problem, myself I need to see my limits but not despair in them and organize my home, garden and paperwork.
Love – Things are shifting, but I am glad the 2.0 of our group ended with lilies and I feel full of hope entering our 3.0 which will have more plants and gardening, less ocean and martial arts, but hopefully joy and horizontal growth. I love that we ended that chapter with lilies.