๐ŸŒฑ W13 Live – Lift – Love ๐Ÿ–ฅ๏ธ

Omnia mutantur nos et mutamur in illis…

Saturday/Creative Day: Last week we went to coconut island, to fish and play with our friends, I had a really good time with the little boat. This week “Surf N Turf” the Mokupapa Center and the Zoo, I really enjoyed it. The zoo was a fun place to do big bubbles. It was nice watching new kids have fun with the giant bubbles. There was a lady I don’t care for at the petting zoo, but I had to let it go since I was with the kids. There are certain people not worth talking to or engaging with, negative hateful people who just aren’t worth the time it would take to get frustrated by. I’m excited to use more resources around us in our community such as the knot tying at the Mokupapa Center, their robotics program, I’m not sure what else, but I’m happy to be integrating into the other educational resources in our area. When I do our paperwork I have to describe how are we integrating into our area and I’m happy we are doing it in a real sense instead of half way fabricating a connection that doesn’t exisit for paperwork. That’s not who I want to be.

Sunday/Faith Day: Last week we went to the bay, the kids had a lot of fun on that dirt/sand beach. This week I wore my new dance clothes and did break dancing after visiting the Observatory, very nice day for me. Played at a new rec center and it was fun to be somewhere different. I like the kids, the place and the vibe there. I was happy to check out Imi Loa Observatory’s children’s museum, their shows are included so we watched a really inspiring show about how people see the Orion constellation as a drum, or part of a canoe in different parts of the world, the thunder bird was cool as well. Orion was a personal favorite, because it was easy to see the three in a row and I had trouble and also because I like archery. I’m happy I can still see it after moving far back and forth in the pacific. The dance class was very helpful, I’m finally getting better at my six step.

Monday/Unity Day: Last week we finished my daughter’s Social Studies and got more focused on Math. This week we had a lazy day covering some school work, but then went out to help a friend after, which is nice as long as we are not too behind on our own home and schoolwork.

Clutter Fight Club: Helped a friend instead of myself this week, happy for their progress. In my own home I’m realizing having it not cleaner makes me afraid of new people, but I’m okay having people I’m already used to over. I’m afraid the kids may get hurt more than that it’s messy… which is a factor too, but especially the unsafe paths make me worry. (Later in the week I did some cleaning, not really decluttering, but that is good too, to get the dust and mold and grime off surfaces before it takes a deep hold.

Tuesday/Self-Determination: Last week I worked on reseeding the lawn, it’s been crazy rainy so hopefully the seeds are happy and not washed away, time will tell. Went to help a friend set up a school area, it went well and I’m happy it got done, it feels like something I wanted to do coming together. Caught up on paperwork a little bit so that feels really good to not have it hanging over my head as much. I thought we would run into someone better at paperwork than I was, but in the end we didn’t yet so I am working on finishing that just as I have been working on finishing my cleaning project. I’m happy to get those two things done, I also want to get my garden cleaned up and check on all the Farm Together Gardens, that’s defiantly my favorite program I’ve been a part of lately.

Wednesday/Collective Work Day: Last week I worked on transcripts and worksheets at home, I saw that I wanted to step away from a lot of group stuff, but not all, then I actually did, writing about it/realizing it help me live my truth more. Today I am ready to go back and I am happy to go and I am aligned with why I started and what I want to do in the future, sometimes a reset is important. Planted mamake and ohia seeds, hoping for a cell germination on peat moss to be better than what so far hasn’t worked. I really enjoyed some new kids enjoying music time, the same kids for martial arts and story time, but I was happy that it worked out and I liked how much deeper people got to explore the instruments with less going on and less people to wait for, it did feel a little empty, but also low pressure and casual and beautiful. I had time to really talk to my friends, I wouldn’t mind if it was always a small group. Later I bought replacement headphones for school and dice and number lines for math club, trying to keep my spending down and be conscious of it.

Thursday/Cooperative Economics Day: Last week my daughter finished Social Studies, and I took a more positive attitude towards cleaning. This week I did a lot more cleaning, I have guests coming over Friday so I wanted to make sure I cleaned but the day started with an airport drop off, then laundry pick up (we saw a cool rainbow on the way), then washing laundry and blankets most the day, doing school and cleaning the house. The bathroom I don’t clean as much took 25 minutes, the normal one only 10 since I did it last week, the back bedroom I don’t usually clean took at least 50 minutes and was full of mold, water and broken systems of trash, laundry and returning dishes… a lot less clothes than in the past, which is good to let air circulate. I started the hall, Livingroom, moved the sofa to clean the floor, then got really tired, which is okay because it was really late after just those 2.5 rooms… tomorrow I really should clean the kitchen and fridge because we are going to cook and the fridge smells gross. I’ve gotten really good at dishes and laundry, but I’m still not the best at organizing and I don’t know at all about grout and detailed cleaning yet.

Friday/Creativity Day: Last week we dropped off new milkweed sprouts and planted sunflowers. We had a fun cooking competition and got new gravel for the garden. It was a lovely day, two shifts of friends came over and it was nice, but time seemed to fly by. I do like having friends, getting support, learning new things, but also it seems like with a lot of friends over there isn’t time to think about life and goals. So a middle ground is nice with some days together and some days apart to think about what to do next and to breathe and enjoy life. I like cleaning for friends to come over, I like gardening and playing together, but I like reading and drawing by myself so I value some quiet and tranquil moments built into the week so I don’t forget that I like that time to myself. I’m struggling with a balance still.

GARDEN CLUB GOALS: Adventure Garden: Plank Road, Milkweed (six). Front-Front: Trying to spout Mamake (seeds ordered).

Jungle Garden: Central Garden further mulch and garden bed weeding. Practice Ladder Knott. Test Ladder.

Tropical Garden: Organize Plant Starts.

Farm Garden: Central Clearing, Moon Arch, Veggie Beds, Solar pump.

FARM TOGETHER GOALS: Starting mamake, ‘Ohia (0/100), sandalwood, koa and watermelon.

PROJECTS: Waterproof mortar for pond repair. Passport. Backyard road.

CLUTTER FIGHT CLUB: Demold living room. Declutter my bedroom items.

Last Year to This Year

Last Year: I wanted to plant lavender, I don’t have any large ones, but I do have starts I was able to germinate from seeds. I did fix the small pond, I did read to the kids and I am getting more organized, so a lot of things came to pass and some other things I’m working on still. I’m still struggling with slugs in the garden. Wondering about my student loans because the two sides of the government are fighting over it in court. “Vacillating between tired of cleaning and tired of a mess. Frustrated with the way my kids prefer to listen if they get punished, I would prefer a kinder gentler world, but they simply don’t respond to positive reinforcement without negative reinforcement no matter what studies say, my kids won’t behave without periodic punishment.” that was last year and it’s exactly the same feeling still… happy for spring cleanliness, but tired by the cleaning. I should take care of the blueberries we planted last year. Last year I tried sprouting soursop seeds and got impatient, this year I heated the seeds via paper towel method instead of direct sow and it went much faster. Looking at the pictures of this room from last year is fun, last year kids stuff dominated this room, this year this room is dominated by my non-profit stuff and my style, so it’s fun that it became my space, because I hadn’t really claimed any space since getting married. The living room used to have our lizard, but this year we aren’t keeping caged lizards anymore, that’s helpful to not have the cage to clean and crickets to buy. I like lizards, but I don’t like pet care. I was super sad my friends were leaving but kept moving forward making elephant toothpaste for the kids at the beach, demolding my house and growing blueberries, three things I’m still up to this year again.

VALUES REFLECTION REMINDERS:

SAT Creativity thinking of new ways to do better. It was nice being next to a giant butterfly for bubble time, it felt different than bubbles at the beach. Trying a new recipe for the bubble mix was worth it. SUN Faith in myself. I was camping last year, but this year we are starting more classes and I want to help nurture their start up through the rough scheduling and feeling out locations/routines/equipment phase. MON Unity, feeling comfortable in a family. I am not comfortable with my dad still, but being around my friends helps a lot, we are supporting one another more and more. TUE Proactivity, know what I want. I am getting more in touch with my intentions, what makes me happy, what I think is right than ever before. WED Teamwork smarter group work. It was really good to do a reset of my own activities, although I am helping with other classes I see that I let mine slide and become disorganized in the process, I’m glad I was able to make corrections to bring it back into my life and the communities life. THR Connection, sharing my passion with the world/accepting others gifts. I am getting better at coordinating with the other directors, for a long time we didn’t talk via text much and when we sometimes missed eachother we fell more and more out of the loop, I’m glad we are starting to all be on the same page again. FRI Purpose know what I can do. I didn’t realize it but I would find out I’m a good bubble chemist on Saturday.

I learned this last year: ื (alef), ื‘ (beit) , ื’ (gimel), ื“ (daled), ื” (hei), ื• (vav), ื– (Zain), ื— (get), ื˜ (tet), ื™ (yod), ื› (kaf), ืœ (lamed), ืž (mem), ื  (noon), ืก (sameh), ืข (Ain), ืค (pey), ืฆ( tsadik), ืง (kuf), ืจ (reish) , ืฉ (shin), ืช (taf).

This Year: I’m starting to feel more of myself after having kids, my youngest is 4 now, I feel like I have my own identity again, I’m taking care of my appearance better (not for dating, but just to look presentable and normal or well), I have my own room space for now, I feel like I have a job, even though it’s not a paying job, and I feel like I have a purpose outside of my kids, to help people garden. There are a lot of changes with the scouting group, I feel like they are really positive changes that will set us up to grow in a healthy way for the future. That we can and will stay authentically who we started as being as long as we keep checking in with our intentions.

Live – Lift – Love

Live – I feel really alive when I loaned a friend my extra monitor after I said I would, that I can say I will do something and then do it makes me happy.

Lift – I am supporting new classes and clubs that I think will really benefit the kids and people in our area, I’m excited to empower other people to know they can teach before they have everything perfect or the perfect class structure or venue…

Love – I love that some of my friends understand me, some still don’t, but that there are so many that do get my humor or understand what I mean and especially that respect my dreams and boundaries, I love being around my friends again for the first time since Jr. High…it was draining socializing after the pandemic, but I’ve become less drained by it and had some interesting experiences because of my friends.

Our first coding student from last year’s coding camp finished the next coding course, that is very inspiring to me.

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